Reply to Aash

I can still meet them and look them in the eye and talk to them normally. But it is they who are having the difficulty of doing so. MD avoided coming into the reception the day I went there, after opening the door and seeing me there. So, to me, that suggests a certain amount of guilt playing on his conscience. For exactly what I can only fathom but not be positive of.

The future is hidden. The path has already been laid out under our feet but it is not for us to know. Only God has that right. Therefore we must look at it as a challenge.

We must try not to let our wariness of the future prevent us from getting ourselves out of a rut in the present. That's just not going to work. They say that with every bad comes at least 10 good. So think of it in that way. Things could get worse and things could get better. But always remember that when things become worse they can't get any worse. Which means they can only get better!

Philosophy of life.

And a person can be called a quitter only when he decides to not do anything about changing the way his life is going. Not to someone who wants to leave one place to go for better prospects!

So, remember this. Life is all about taking chances. And just because you quit one situation to start another one doesn't mean you are a quitter in the TRUE sense of the word.

As for my bravery...I thank you for thinking that I am brave. Although I can't be sure at times because in my opinion being brave constitutes having confronted him face to face. That is one regret I have. If I could change one thing about that last day when they CREATED the opportunity to tell me everything they wanted, it would be my cowardice for not having CREATED the opportunity for myself to say all I want.

Having said all that I repeat what I said earlier. LEAVE AS SOON AS YOU CAN. Think of the many times he has 'spoken' to you and not bothered to hear your side of the story. If for simple matters he (or rather they) refuse to listen to your side, what do you expect them to do if a more serious situation arises? Think about that.

Remember this also. The Place's reputation still has not been destroyed by their petty acts. Therefore make maximum use of that and use The Place as a stepping stone for your future.