We broke up and I am once again out on my own... I may still have him as a "friend" but that doesn't fill the loveless void he left in his wake....

To be told you're not loved is something truly cruel! I don't know if everyone goes through this episode atleast once in a lifetime, but I know I have gone through it now more than three times already, WITH the same man! So what does that say about me? Am I unworthy of a constant, fulfilling love? Am I so horrible it makes no sense to love me?

Is it a crime to believe that he and I are MEANT to be together? That he and I are soulmates? That it was destiny that brought us together the way we did?

How can he deny these facts? And why must I suffer each time he has a failing sense of security, stability and certainty? I mean! Isn't "US" supposed to be the one thing we don't have to lose faith in???

I love him so much it actually hurts.... Will he ever come back to me...?